Munchkin Messages

Livin' the Life

2010-11-12T15:21:00.000-08:00

Life is crazy insane! And I'm loving it :) I started my junior year at BYU and my first semester as an elementary education major. Things are going well for the most part in my classes and I love the other girl's in the major. I am absolutely loving my apartment and the girls I am living with. I finally feel like this is how college is supposed to be. We have decided that we are going to live together again next year (those of us who are single still at least...) and it will be so much fun. I have been great friends with Amanda for years now and living together hasn't changed our friendship. I knew Christina from her living with Amanda last year and me going over to their apartment all the time. I've gotten to know Jessica over the last few months and she and I get along really well. Christina has a boyfriend who we think she will get married to, so she isn't home a lot of the time. Jess, Amanda and I have some pretty random adventures while she's gone including making a fort in our living room, laughing our heads off at 1:30 in the morning, game nights, jumping in the pool fully clothed, movie marathons, scheming trips to St. George and the aquarium... It could be a very long list if I tried to name them all :)

Onto boys... Oh dear, this subject could take a while. Taylor came home from his mission on Oct. 19 and I went to go see him on the 20th. He thought we were dating from the moment I saw him... Bad idea. I've seen him about 10 times in the past 4 weeks so I haven't really discouraged him, although we did have conversation about me wanting space last week; he didn't get it because he called me Wednesday night telling me that he still wants to date me. I told him that I have issues saying no to people I love and that I don't like people to be upset with me. I also told him stories about guys that I've had to turn down because I wasn't interested. I hope he gets it, but I don't think the message has been drilled into his head enough. I am going to see him this weekend at Sister Wakefield's mission farewell, so I am going to have to talk to him in person. There is more than one reason that I'm not interested in Taylor...

There is a guy in my ward who is very interested in dating me and I am quite inclined to reciprocate that feeling. His name is Tyler Baer and I am getting butterflies just thinking about him. He graduated in April in business finance but is in Provo working (and probably looking for a wife, to be honest). He is from Mesa, AZ and has 5 siblings. He is 6'2" with messy, dirty blonde hair, an infectious smile and pale, blue-green eyes that crinkle when he smiles. He can sing really well and was a tenor in Men's Chorus and Concert Choir for 5 years. He went to Singapore on his mission and is therefore inclined to start speaking Chinese every now and then, which I don't understand. He is easy to talk to and the two of us banter a lot. It is so nice having someone to banter with. Very few people in Provo will join me in my banter, and the fact that he will makes me more attracted to him. We've talked everyday for the past 4 weeks and I want this pattern to continue. We'll see what happens...

Yada yada yada :)

2010-05-09T22:14:00.000-07:00

I love how very non-organized I am with this whole blog-ness. Hahahaha I get on one of my spurts of wanting to write about life and so I do :) Let's see what we have for today, shall we?
First of all, I am FINISHED with my sophomore year at BYU. (I love being done. I feel so accomplished) and I am back in Layton. I enjoyed my classes winter semester (Interior design, music civilizations, student development, folk dance, tap dance, living prophets and mission prep.) My religion and dance classes were easily my favorites; the other 3 I tolerated (most of the time). I especially loved my mission prep class. It made me want to go serve a mission SO BAD right now which, unfortunately, I'm not able to do on account of me not being old enough. Grr. I dislike rules when there don't work in my favor. Oh well, that's life I guess. Anyway... I'm super glad to be out of my apartment. Don't get me wrong, I'll miss Liz, but she's the only one I'll miss. Taylor was just kinda pathetic (brilliant but air-heady) and Katie didn't seem to approve of me (terribly frustrating and her loss). So I'm not going to dwell on it :)
For now I'm in the middle of job searching. I feel like I've applied for a billion places and no one seems to be hiring. My worst fear in life is rejection and so this is incredibly hard for me. When I've gone places to sell things and what not, if people didn't go for it I could blame it on the product being lame and worthless. But since I'm the item being sold, this rejection is really hard on me. I don't know why employers don't seem to like me, but that's the case. I'm going to try and get over and just keep looking, but that is easier said than done...
Onto less depressing subjects. :) One of the bonuses of being home is being around people that I genuinely like. This being said, I've hung out with Thomas several times in the short two weeks I've been home :) HOORAY! I absolutely love that kid. I was lucky to have befriended him my senior year of high school.
This leads great into my next subject: MISSIONARIES :D (it also happens to be my favorite subject, if you can't tell) So Thomas and I were over at Keith's house the other day (even though he's on his mission haha). We played with Jessie and Jake and had dinner with the family. We were talking about our plans for the summer and all the things we are planning on doing. We were talking about family reunions and Keith's dad started talking about the Flanary family reunions and how much fun they are. He turned to me and said, "Stephanie, you would have so much fun at these reunions when Keith comes home." I laughed and kind of shook it off as an odd comment, but then later we were talking about EFY and Thomas could possibly still go this summer if he wanted to. I said that my plan for next summer is to be an EFY counselor if I'm still single. Charlene (Keith's mom) looked at me and said with a smile, "You'd better still be single next summer. Keith doesn't get home until next September!" That's when I thought to myself "Oh boy, this whole family already has me married off to their son." :) To go right along with that, I went to a farewell for a friend from high school a couple weeks ago and I was talking to Katie, Thomas and Jocelyn (Thomas' quasi-girlfriend) after the meeting was over. Katie looked at me with an inquisitive eye and asked if I was writing her brother. I told her that i write him after I get a letter from him. She said that wasn't enough because she knows that he is not a good writer. She insisted that I write him emails because I'd hear from him more often that way. I laughed and said that I was going to stick with my system. She scowled at me and told me to come stand next to her. I did (out of fear for my life) and she took my face in both her hands and grumbled, "If you want to be my sister, you have to write him!" Thomas started laughing the second she said it. I was speechless for a minute then I started laughing too. She was dead serious. It was hilarious. So yeah... The Adams want me to be a part of their family.
This is where we have a conflict of interest because the Larkin's want me to be a part of their family too. Back in December I went over to deliver a Christmas present to them and I ended up talking to Troy and Jill for like 2 hours. In that time, they asked if I would come over on Christmas and talk to Taylor with their family. I said that it sounded fun, but that I'd rather wait for Taylor's permission before I do that. They said that they would ask him about Mother's Day and that if he said yes they would love to have me come and talk to him too. In March I got a text from Jill inviting me to plan on coming over on Mother's Day to talk to him. I was looking forward to that for a long time. Needless to say, this was the best Mother's Day I have ever had :) I talked to him for about 15-20 minutes. I asked about his favorite parts about being a missionary (he asked what I wanted to know and I said "Everything!" but that wasn't specific enough for him), if the people were taking good care of him, if he uses his bike, how his investigators are doing, etc. He asked me about school and my family and friends, life in general, that sort of thing. It was kind of hard to hear him (he mumbles, switched into French a couple times, was on a cell phone half way around the world...) but I still heard his voice and it was great! I'm so excited for him to come home. 5 months!!! :D That's all that's left. I can't wait to get my best friend back, even though I'm a little bit nervous about what might happen.
I think that is enough to digest for one night :) I am going to bed now. Adios!

Growing up

2009-12-11T22:50:00.000-08:00

He he he he he he :) Oh life.
Lots of things are going on at the moment. School is over (except for finals. I'm taking those one at a time next week. No reason to unnecessarily stress myself, right?) This semester seemed super short. And I'm afraid I didn't apply myself very much, which isn't a good thing because I really need to focus on being a god student. It is just so hard because I feel like all I've ever done with my life is study and go to class. I think I just need a break to clear my head; the problem is that I don't know when I'm going to be able to take a break. *Sigh*
Work is going well. Despite the fact that I have to walk home from work at two in the morning down rape hill all by myself in the sub-zero degree weather, I really like my job. It gives me plenty of time to do my homework and it also allows me valuable "Stephanie" time :) I really enjoy being able to just have time to sit with my thoughts and sing, read, think, day-dream etc.
My living conditions are slowly but surely getting better. Katie and I have had a couple of bonding moments (they are few and far between, but at least they are happening). We still haven't had very deep conversations, but maybe by the end of the year we will be friends. (I'm crossing my fingers for that one)
Most of my missionaries are out. The vast majority of them have been out for at least a little while, some are still prepping to leave and some are almost on their way home. It is so weird to think about. But I definitely enjoy it :) Missionaries are my favorite. I miss them terribly and I hope things can be quasi normal when they get back. I'm most excited for Vandes, Taylor, justin and Keith to be home. Unfortunately Keith has been out for a total of about 3.5 months. Vandes, on the other hand, comes home in July (I think.) I'll have to get on his case fr not writing me at all...
So I have very interesting news. I like Troy Teeples and he likes me. It is SO strange because it's TROY! I would have never expected it. But I am having so much fun. The best part about being around him is that I'm completely myself and not my Provo-self. I really don't like my Provo-self. She's boring and quiet and timid. My complete self is outgoing, random, funny, full of laughter and friendly. I like being me and to find someone who likes me being me is nice. I don't feel like I'm trying and I haven't flirted like this for the longest time and it feels GREAT! :D
Anyway, that's about it. I'll keep you updated one whatever goes on. Adios!

Life :D

2009-09-18T20:38:00.000-07:00

I'm a sophomore. Its really odd and wonderful. But it feels like I've been in Provo forever. I wish I could get out of here for a time. That would be nice :)
Anyway... School is going really well. I'm taking 16 credit hours this semester. I'm taking Sign language, Docrine and Covenants, American Heritage, Geography, English (for my major) and Biology lab (also for my major). I'm actually really enjoying it. I don't even mind doing the homework because I'm learning so much. Its becoming increasingly hard to choose a favorite (which is very strange considering I've never been a huge history person).
I really like my apartment in Liberty Square. We have so much storage and living space. The only problem with it is the bedroom. The beds are so tall (they go up to my shoulder so I have a stool) and we only have one shelf between the two of us (which Katie claimed from day one). So I have the top shelf of my deak and thats it. Its rather unfortunate because I have a lot of display stuff. Liz and Taylor are really easy to live with. We get along really well but we don't really interfere with each other's lives. Katie is a different story; she doesn't talk to me. She'll acknowledge my presence in the room, smile, nod and leave with all her stuff. The longest period of time we've been in the same room at the same time is when we are both asleep at night. I have a feeling she doesn't like me very much. She's not openly hostile or anything, but she doesn't try to be friendly. Whenever we have a conversation I'm the one who instigates it and she only answers with one-or-two word answers. Its very upsetting (especially after having such a good experience with Jess last year, its a total let down)
On a brighter note, oh wait. I don't have any super fantastic good news. This bites! I keep having moments of saddness but then I realize that there is no point in being sad. So I might as well just be happy :) I don't like having to remind myself to be happy. It has never happened to me before. I hope this isn't becoming a regular occurance.
Anyway... Thats it for now. Adios!

Hehehehehe :)

2009-08-10T23:56:00.000-07:00

So... I'm confused/excited/relieved/giddy all at the same time. Things are going pretty well here in Provo. Work is almost over and I'm starting to pack my things. I really don't like packing, especially packing everything. It makes my apartment seem morelike a jail cell than normal. But its ok because I get to move in with Liz, Taylor and Katie in a couple weeks :)

Let me tell you why I have all the mixed emotions though. Remember when I said I think I love Keith? :D I'm pretty sure I do. And he likes me too (at least I'm hoping so) Let me tell you the story: I went home on Saturday after work to celebrate my brother's birthday. It was good (even though he's kind of a dork). But afterwards all there was to do was sit around my house and I don't like doing that when I'm home because there are so many people I want to see and sitting there doesn't accomplish anything. So I called up Thomas (I would have called Keith, but he has a habit of not keeping his phone near him and I never know if he's actually going to answer) and Thomas told me that I needed to go to Keith's house and see them. They were finishing up watching "Nacho Libre". I went over and knocked on the door; they waved me in from downstairs. So I came down and sat on the end of the couch (the rest of the couch was full with Thomas, Jocelyn, Keith, Maddie, Katie and Kadee). After the movi was over we were just talking for a bit then Katie had to take Maddie and Kadee home. And then Kevin came over. (People just kept coming in and out, but its ok at Keith's house and I love it) We started quoting movies ad ended up quoting "Atlantis" a lot, so much so that we ended up just putting it in and watching the whole movie. As we started it, I got up and decided to call home and ask for a curfew extension until after the movie was over. My daddy said it was fine so I didn't have to leave half way through the movie (thank goodness) Kevin left for a bit so it was just me, Keith, Jocelyn and Thomas. Keith started poking me and I started squirming and Jocelyn attempted to help me attack him, but we still lost. I ended up squirming down so far that I was using Keith's chest as a pillow (convenient how that worked out...). He stopped there and then put his arm around me :) It was wonderful.
Anyway, Jocelyn had to be home so Thomas drove her and that left just me and Keith. We just sat there watching the movie and then all the sudden I feel him kiss the top of my head. So cute! Then Thomas came back and the three of us finished "Atlantis." I love it when it's just the three of us! It feels complete and whole. When the movie was over, we sat there talking for a bit. Then I decided that I should go home. So I said "Ok, well I have to go." And they both asked why (they always ask questions...) and I said that I told my parents I'd come home after the movie as over. They both said that I didn't have to leave right then because the movie would still be over and hour from them. Leave it up to them to think of something like that. I attempted to get up to g anyway and Thomas knocked me back onto the couch. I enjoyed being there too much to retaliate so I just sat there. Keith turned so that he was on his stomach, facing me. I couldn't resist, I just started playing with his hair. He sighed and closed his eyes in contentment. Then he said "You're amazing at that." I asked how so and he told me. I thought it was interesting :) Anyway, I stayed like that for a while then decided that I really should go. It was 12:30 by that point. So Thomas helped me up, then I helped Keith up and he kep my hand as we walked up the stairs. We went outside and over to Thomas' car. I gave him one more hug and promised him that I woul be there next Saturday, and he told me that he was going to the single's ward tomorrow. I asked him which one and he said it was the same one my brother goes to and I was going to be going with him. So I told Thomas I'd see him there and I think that made it better than him goi g by himself.
Thomas left and Keith pulled me into another hug. He walked me backwards to my car and then we stayed there for about 20 more minutes. We talked a little bit about random things, and every nowand then he'd pull me into a tighter hug. Once he pulled back and made a strange. I asked him what it was for and he sid it was nothing. I knew it wasn't a "nothing" face, so I made him tell me. He said he was having an internal debate about whether to kiss me or not. I said "Oh. Well let me know when you decided." He chuckled and said "You'll be the first one to know." Then we talked some more, pulled some "really attractive" faces at each other and he'd pull me closer every now and then. Eventually he said "ok, I think you should go." I gave him a look and he said "I decided not tonight." I shrugged and said ok then smiled at him. He opened my door and told me to drive home safe and that he'd talk to me later. Then he closed my door and walked back to his driveway. I drove and away grinning to myself. When I got far enough away, I screamed ot of happiness. That really is my happy place. I just feel so protected and safe and liked. That's when I decided that him not kissing me that night was a good thing. I would have enjoyed it (especially because of random moments that I've had in my mind... anyway...) but I want our first kiss to be something special; after we've done something together better than just watching a movie at his house and him walking me to my car. But it gives me hope that it actually will happen and it's not just something I'd imagine. :) YAY!
So that's it. I'm going to bed now. When something else happens, I'll let you know! Adios!

Time...

2009-07-29T13:20:00.001-07:00

So, I'm really bad at this whole "keeping-up-to-date" thing. Oh well. You'll forgive me, right?

I finished up freshman year. THANK GOODNESS! I'm so glad to be done. Moving out of my apartment was a little sad because I'll miss my roommates a lot. Jess and I had planned on being roomies for fall, but then she had to go and get engaged and kill all our plans. Its ok though. I really like Taylor and they are so cute together :) They are getting married in about 2 and half weeks. They are both so excited about it. I'm going to the reception on the 15th.

I currently work with BYU Housing. I absolutely love my job. It gets a little tedious at times, but then it makes up for it. It sounds really boring and lame but I'm really enjoying it. Every week I check EFY kids into the dorms and then have building prep on Saturday mornings (at 6:30 am. I kinda want to shoot myself every Saturday, but thats ok). Then Tuesday-Thursday I have desk shifts, roving shifts and project hours to keep things running smoothly (and to give me more hours and therefore more money.) I love most of my co-workers. There are only 10 of us who have this job, so we work together all the time. I work with Levi, Ashley, Jana, Matt, Lindsay, Danny, Kira, Kevin and Becca. I've become really close to Kira. She and I sign to each other all the time and it really bothers everyone else, especially Jana; its very entertaining. :) We're attempting to teach Danny how to sign. Most of the time he does really well... ha ha ha ha

I've done a very bad job at writing my missionaries recently. Oh, Jon came home and absolutely nothing happened. We hung out a few times and we went on a date, but he had that creepy "looking for my eternal companion" look in his eyes and I don't want to go there at all. So we talk every so often but we don't see much of each other (which I consider a good thing). Craig left on his mission. It was a sad day. I couldn't even go to this farewell because I had to speak in my ward the same day. I was very annoyed with my bishop. Luckily, I got to hang out with him the Saturday night before he left. I went home for some reason and as I was exiting, Amanda called me and told me that I needed to drive to Layton that very minute so we could kidnap him. We didn't actually have to kidnap him. He volunteered to hang out with us :) We met up at Amanda's house. He and I pulled up (for opposite directions) at the same time. I could hear music from inside his car. We got out of our cars and he pulled me into a huge hug and said "hello beautiful girl," like he always does. :) He just held me for a minute (it was a minute of bliss) and then I asked "What were you listening to?" He chuckled and said "Wicked." I gasped and said "I was too!" Then he pulled me into an even tighter hug and said "We're just perfect together." I almost had a spaz attack. My insides were going hay-wire and it was all I could do to not scream for joy at the top of my lungs. :) Anyway... the three of us (Me, Craig and Amanda) made banana splits/ice cream sundaes and then watched HSM3 (Craig's idea). After we were done with that it was like midnight. He decided that he should probably go, so we all got up and started gathering our things. We walked out onto Amanda's front porch and he gave Amanda a hug, then it was my turn. He pulled me in and held me tight. Just before he let go, he gave me an extra squeeze. He made me promise to write him and then he walked down to his car, waved to us, got in and drove away. As I waved good-bye to him, I lost it; I started crying. I turned to look at Amanda and she was crying too. She hugged me and it started raining. It was horrible. I decided that I should probably go as well. So I got in my car and drove back to Provo at 1 in the morning, in the rain, crying. It was the most pathetic drive home ever. Oh well.
I've decided something else too: I think I might love Keith :) I only see him once every month or so, but every time I see him its like I've never gone away. He just got his mission call to Kennewick Washington. It makes me laugh that that is where he's going. I went home this past weekend for Taylor Pulver's farewell and I figured I'd go congratulate him in person. I went over to his house and his mom answered the door (his family loves me. Although, I have a feeling they love most of Keith and Katie's friends) and invited me in. I went up the stairs and he greeted me at the top with a huge hug. (I definitely love being in his arms, just so you know) Thomas was there too. I gave him a hug and made him spin me :) It's tradition at this point. But then we all sat down and started talking. That's one of the things that I love about those two; they're ok with just sitting and talking. After a while Keith grabbed a pillow and sort of draped himself on my lap. That was an open invitation for me to start scratching his back (which is good because I've wanted to do that for a very long while.) While we were talking, Thomas told me "You need to be in town on the 15th around 4." I told him that I could probably do that and then I asked why. Thats when he told me: he's getting baptized. Let me repeat myself
THOMAS IS GETTING BAPTIZED! I'm so excited! Keith covered my mouth so I wouldn't scream, but I still managed to get some sound out. :) I can't wait!!! There is no chance I'm going to miss that. I have to be in Layton for Jessica's wedding reception that night anyway so it's perfect. The problem is that I will have to split my time between the two occasions. Jessica's reception doesn't start until 6:30, but I could probably spend hours on end with Keith and Thomas. The only problem I might run into is that I have to share Thomas and Jessica with hoards of people and sharing isn't my strong point. :) Hopefully with Thomas being distracted by all those people it will give me more Keith time (I am so selfish sometimes...)
What else... Oh, I went to the lake a couple of weeks ago. Without a doubt its one of my favorite places I've ever been to. I did everything this summer: tubing (of course), knee-boarding (with Cass), wake boarding (we got all 4 Robinson kids back behind our boat at the same time) and I even slalomed :) I've never been able to do it before. I was so proud of myself. We also went to the rope swing a couple of times and I declared war on all the little boys. I'm pretty sure I lost, but it was 15 to 1. My odds weren't that good, especially because some of them are bigger than me. I love playing with them. I hope they like it. I just remember being that age and looking up to the older cousins and wanting to do something with them. But they were always "too cool" to pay with us younger kids. I want to change that legacy. :)
Megan and I went to the Kenny Chesney concert on the 23rd. It was AMAZING! Lady Antebellum and Miranda Lambert were his opening acts. I would have enjoyed them a lot more if it hadn't been 105 degrees outside. Once the sun went down it was a lot easier to have energy and enjoy it. Coincidentally, the sun was going down just as Kenny came on stage :) Ha ha ha ha I don't think it was a coincidence at all. But it was a very long concert. It started at 5:30 and we didn't leave until 10:45. The first three hours were miserable because of the heat but Kenny made up for it 10-fold. He even sang one of my favorite songs of his. He took a minute to thank all the radio stations in Salt Lake for playing his music. He said that it was Utah that gave him his first big break by playing his CD over and over. And then, for the first time in 6 years, he sang the song that made him big; he sang "Me and You" which I AM going to dance to at my wedding. I think it's so cute. :) Highlight of the concert for me. I even got it recorded on my phone, but the recording isn't very good because you can hear me singing along with him. (He's a lot better than I am.)
Well, that's basically life for me. If anything new comes up, I'll let you know. Adios for now!

Sheesh!!

2009-04-01T20:56:00.000-07:00

Where in the world has the time gone?!?!?! How can it already be April? How can I have already survived an entire year of college?!?! This is insane...
So on the boy-front, things are relatively calm at the moment. The really only big news is that my missionary comes home exaclty one month from today. Let me say that again
HE COMES HOME ONE MONTH FROM TODAY!!!!!! :D
I'm so excited! (If you can't tell...) It actually freaks me out a little bit: I don't know what to expect when he gets back. Here's the thing. I liked him a lot since we first met when I was 16. We spent 4 straight days together (he was in my trek family) and I had withdrawls after we got home and I hadn't seen him. We continued to talk on-and-off up until he left in the spring of '07 for his mission in Ohio. We have written his entire mission and in a letter that I got about 6 months ago (wow, I didn't realize it'd been that long...) he asked me to wait for him. So... a little bit nervous about where this is going to go.
Let's see... what else? I told myself that I was over Craig. I've been working very hard to not be in love with him. It works most of the time. Its only when I see him again that my heart knows that its more in control than my mind. And for a little time after every encounter. But then I can go on make-believing that I don't love him. :/ Its a very complicated process. And this problem really only has two solutions and, frankly, I don't like to think of one of them. The other one I quite enjoy, but I don't want to get my hopes up. So I try to push this little issue out of my mind when I can.
On to a happier subject. Missionaries!!! :D I love missionaries. They are my favorite. I'm currently writting several of them, though most of them are strictly friends. I have one in Ohio (ok, so that one isn't just a friend), one in Fiji (my best friend), one in Australia, one in Missouri, one in Ireland, one in Chile (whom I have not heard from in a while), one in Washington (so funny story, this one was actually my brother's companion. ha ha ha ha), and others whom I don't write as often as I should. And I have one going to the Marshall Islands, one going to Hong Knog, one going to Philidelphia, one going to Brazil and one going to the Philipines, not to mention scads of people from my ward (also whom I probably won't write). But it means that I will know people all around the world and I quite enjoy that fact.
School is going well. I officially declared my major in Elementary Education a couple weeks ago. I've planned out the rest of forever so I can be accepted into the program winter of 2011. I'm so excited. I can't wait to be a teacher! I hope I'm a good one...
So yeah, that's basically life thus far. I'll keep you posted on anything new and exciting (ha ha ha, ok I might forget, but I will try harder)
Adios for now!

Shameless Flirt

2008-11-18T13:29:00.000-08:00

That's what I decided I am. I don't do it on purpose. I just become flirty and forget myself sometimes. So this isn't really "heartbreak material" this time, but its on the same path.
So this past weekend I was at home and James called me up (because he knew I was home). He was asking me what I was up too and badgering me to come hang out with him, Adam, Joseph and Austin. I always hung out with James and Adam in high school an only occasionally with Joseph and Austin. He gave the phone to Joseph and had him try to convince me to come. He said "I miss you! Come over and see me right now!" (I'd had planned on going anyway) So I said "Ok, where are you?" He told me that they were all over at Adam's house. Then he mentioned that convincing me was easier than he expected. I told him (jokingly) it was because I love him more than I love James. He laughed and said that was a good reason. I told him that I would be over in a minute and then got in my car and headed over.
When I got there James and Austin were being butts and wouldn't even give me hugs all because I said that I love Joseph the most. (Boys can be so dumb.) So I started being extra flirty with Joseph and Adam to make them want to at least say hello to me. Adam is used to my flirtatiousness so it didn't even phase him. Joseph on the other hand... I don't think he's ever been the focus of my flirtiness. So I kind of had him wrapped around my finger all night. It was cute but... not really what I was going for.
Anyway, so we went out to get pizza in James' car. I ended up in the back between Austin and Joseph. Austin had forgiven me at this point and so I was sitting between two boys who both wanted my attention (it was rather hilarious in my opinion, though I'm sure they didn't think so) We got the pizza and went back to Adam's house to eat it. Once the boys had finished stuffing their faces (and I mean that quite literally), we decided to watch "Jumper." So we went downstairs and everyone started settling in on the couch. (Two other girls had joined us by this point) I was waiting for people to move so I could find a nice comfy spot, when suddenly I was no longer touching the ground. James scooped me up like it was nothing and then just kind of let me squirm for a moment. (nerd bomber) He saw an opening next to Joseph and went to drop me in the empty spot. Unfortunately, Joseph's knee found the same spot my head wanted to find. It kinda hurt and I had a little goose egg, but its gone now.
I made myself comfortable between Joseph and Adam's little brother Jake (Jake loves me and I love him. Its very cute.) He came to give me a hug, but because it was to the side I only used one arm and it looked kind of awkward. At least Joseph thought so because he said "Did you just hug him like that? How does that work?" And then he made me demonstrate (that crafty little punk) and he just kinda held me there for a second. It was cute :) So then, the movie started and it was ok. It didn't really have plot but it was still an ok show. Within the first half hour though, they killed a guy with a large knife and I really detest blood so I kinda shrank back and cowered into Joseph's shoulder. He held my hand and pulled me close (again, cute) and even once it was over he didn't let go of my hand. It was odd. Especially because it didn't seem like him. I didn't hang out with him a whole lot in high school, but I don't think I ever heard of him being a cuddler. It struck me as odd.
I had to get up at some point to call my mom to ask if I could stay later than curfew (which I hate, by the way. Its so nice living on your own and coming home when you please) Luckily, because I called before I was supposed to be home, she said I could stay til the movie was over. So I went back in and sat next to Joseph. I didn't want to just give him my hand back (that would have made it way too obvious) so I folded my arms over my chest. My left hand (which is the bottom one when I fold my arms) was barely touching his tricep (which is relatively toned, I might add). Eventually I (almost unconsciously) started brushing my fingertips against his arm. I was randomly drawing designs on his arm. By the poorly-masked look on his face, I think he enjoyed it. And then I saw his hand start to move toward mine (which is what I was going for) and he held my hand again. He kept mine in his until the movie was over. But then he had to get home because he was already late, so I gave him a quick hug and he was gone.
Weird, huh? I think so. And the worst part is that I don't even know how to keep in touch with him: he doesn't have a cell phone. So, now I'm pretty confused about things. This isn't even bringing anyone else in the picture. (aka missionaries!!!) Because I have a story about one of them too.
Here it is simplified. I liked this boy and he went on his mission and we've written since he left. I got a letter from him two week ago in which he told me that he loves me and that I should wait for him. He gets home in May. (Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me...) So yeah, I'll give you more details if you text me or call me or something :)
Ha ha ha ha ha ha That's it for now! Adios!

Monotony

2008-11-11T18:02:00.000-08:00

Life seems to be the same thing day after day after day after day after day after... You get the idea. But really truly, I wake up at 8, go to class at 9, am busy all day until 5, come home and do homework, eat (some times), do more homework, waste time and then go to bed and do it all over. Seem a little monotonous? I think so. Let's see, whats happened to mix it up?
Oh, I got a letter from a missionary (not out of the ordinary) but what he wrote was. It was from Elder Merrell in Ohio. I opened it up and there was a cute yellow flower taped to the front. Next to it he wrote "Here is a token of God's love for you... and mine." I think that happens to be one of the cutest things ever. Then I read the three page letter (front and back) and he told me that he loves me (he underlined it and it wasn't just one of those "you're amazing" I love you's. Pretty sure it was the real deal. Weird) and then after he signed his name we wrote "P.S. Wait of me. Will you?" Doesn't that just make you happy? Because it makes me happy. :)
What else...? Oh, I got my first kiss. That was an experience. I enjoyed it thoroughly at the time but things that happened after... Never mind. If you want the story, call me up and we'll chat. :) Sound like a plan? Good.
I went home this weekend for Brian Tobler's farewell. He's going to be such an amazing missionary. The people of San Fransisco are lucky to get such an awesome missionary. But while I was home I text James and told him I was home. He told me to get my butt over to where he was so I could see him. So I went over and saw him and we flirted and cuddled and he looked at me incredulously because of how good a flirt I am. (I think he forgot about how proficient in the art of cuddling I am) But I think he enjoyed it immensely; I know I did (in a non-committal way). Oh well, that was way fun because I got to see my best friends. It was so fun seeing Chay and Brittani and Jess and Megan and James and Taylor.
Oh speaking of Taylor, I had a moment when I was at home. My mom wanted me to write my Christmas list. I started thinking about what I want and I thought "I want a boy" but mom can't get me that. So then I was thinking I want all my friends back and I started crying because it hit me that I won't see "Elder Larkin" for 2 years. (I know, you're thinking "what a loser." but it was a tender moment for me, so don't mock me).
Well, that's about all that's going on in my life. I suppose I should try to focus on more homework (curse this evil-ness that is supposedly good for me) Adios!!

My Friday

2008-10-18T16:10:00.000-07:00

Basically, I was ready to hurt someone this week. Things weren't going very good and I was tired of constantly having things to do and nothing to do at the same time (its a delicate balance). I was wondering what I was going to do on Friday. The week had been such that I really just wanted to go home, but I didn't have a ride and I promised myself that the only times I was allowing myself to come home was the choir concert at Layton on the 27th and Thanksgiving. Til then I'm forcing myself to stay in Provo. So going home was out the question. We had a ward talent show planned, but I normally find talent shows really dumb, so that wasn't on my agenda either. "Club night" was being held at the Wilk, but I didn't have anyone to go with. I could have gone by myself, but those things are always more fun with friends. This is what was going through my mind Thursday night.
I woke up Friday at 6:45 to get to class on time at 8. I really just wanted to be back in bed and I moved sluggishly all morning. My sluggishness carried over into my classes. Physical Science lab is always lame and I never do anything but take notes in Human Development. Right after HD I had to go to work. Work wasn't that bad because I knew when I was done, my formal day was over (and that is always something I look forward too.) I came home after work and Jess asked me if I wanted to go running. I haven't gone running in the longest time. I thought I was going to die. We ran from our apartment, up and around the temple. We walked part of the way because my lungs were on fire, but then we kept running. On our way back we were walking by the MTC for cool-down and I had the urge to sprint. I told Jess I was going to sprint down to the next light. It was so weird sprinting again. I haven't sprinted since the accident, and I swear I was air-resistance queen. Normally when you sprint you bend into the wind to cut down air resistance, but my rod won't let me bend so...
Then after our run I showered and got ready for the ward talent show (my roommates decided we should just go.) While waiting, Desi's friend Blake came over and told us that we should all go with him and Desi to the Haunted Forest. They turned it into a huge date. I really don't like scary things so I told them I was ok with not going. They didn't approve so Morgan stole my phone and got Craig's number. She called him and invied him to be my date. He told her he would call her back and give her a positive yes or no. After that we headed over to the talent show together and prepared ourselves for whatever the heck the people in our ward had planned. Surprisingly I thoroughly enjoyed myself. My favorite talent was the very last act. Four boys that I didn't even know were in our ward got up and introduced themselves as "A Capella Sweetness". I was little afraid they were going to be off key and lame (like another group we heard earlier) but then they started into "For the Longest Time" in perfect four-part harmony. I thought I was going to die; I was so happy. That is one of my favorite songs and they sang it perfectly. After it ended we were talking to some of the girls upstairs and they linvited us to a dance party in the "Rogers" building. They told us to wear white because it was a black light party. So we came back, changed and headed over. It was pretty fun. It would have been so much more fun if some of my close friends (most of which don't go to BYU) were there to share it with me. Oh well.
We got back home and Craig called Morgan and gave her a positive yes that he'd come with me. So they drug me along with them. We all met in our apartment and caravaned over to American Fork. In all, there were 12 of us: Morgan and Steve, Desi and Blake, Kirsten and Justin, Liz and Robby, Jessica and Taylor and me and Craig. We got there and were waiting in line and some of the cast were there to get us spooked from the start. (I was teriffied out of my mind and Craig wasn't helping at all. He was try to make me jump and get me to scream. The nerve of some people.) We headed into the "forest" and things started jumping out right and left at us. We were a pretty big target to hit. At first, I just had my arm linked through Craig's, but then things started coming at us more and more, so he put his arm around me and pulled me closer. I wrapped my arm around his waist and held onto the side-seems of his coat with my left hand while my right hand was across his stomach holding onto the front left pocket of his coat. I felt safe. It was wonderful. Very rarely would I look up and see what we were walking through, normally I just let him pull me through it.And I could press myself even closer to his body whenever anything came up bahind me (as they always did becasue I shied away from them, I got to be very close to him a lot) I enjoyed myself immensely. I didn't even scream a lot; I never screamed bloody murder, I just yelped twice and whimpered a bit. It took us about an hour to go through the forest. We headed back to the cars and started for home.
The ride back was one of my favorite parts of the night. I started playing with Craig's hair (which he told me he loves) and then Jess, Taylor, Craig and I randomly broke out into four part harmony during the song "Fall for You." It was so cool. We got back home and had hot chocolate at Liz's place. Then the boys all went home and us girls stayed up talking about how much we all enjoyed ourselves a ton until 2:30 in the morning. It was a truly great night.
I'm a happy person now. I'll leave you with that for now. Adios!

Life

2008-10-09T20:34:00.000-07:00

So this is basically how my life has gone for the past week:
Wake up and go to class, go to more class, go to work, get some food, go to class, go to more class, come home and do homework, get myself more confused about boys, do more homework and then go to bed.
It pretty much bites. So today I decided to change it up. I went to class in the morning, went and got tickets for the "Homecoming Spectacular" came home, got food, did a little bit of homework and read my book. Then I went to class again, came home did a little bit of homework then continued reading my book. I love it when I can relax. Its like my favorite thing in the universe. I even forgot about my boy problem (only because I was reading about someonelse's) I've decided to re-read the Twilight series and I'm on the 2nd one. I'm pretty sure at this rate I'll be able to finish it tonight. Its so happy. I can't even describe how much I'm not a fan of Jacob Black. Edward all the way! (Just saying)
But now I'll tell you about my boy situation. I've been talking to David and he told me that he wants "another chance" but I didn't even want the first time so there is no way I'm going to try anything again with him. I'm still very much in love with Craig. Just seeing him and hearing his voice makes me spaz out. Its highly pathetic actually, but I can't help myself. I'm still afraid I'm falling for James again. I just love seeing him and he's so easy to be myself around (a little too easy actually).
I also have a stalker. His name is Jace. He is Justin's roommate, he's from Australia and he is debatably one of the ugliest people I've ever met. He gives me the willies. I try to avoid him when I can, but he has a habit of bothering me at work. Story time!
So I went home this past weekend for General Confernce. I hung out with James. We finished a movie we'd started together back in May. But while we were watching (and cuddling) my phone rang. I pulled it out of my pocket and made a face when I saw that it was Jace. I had told James aobut him before and he wanted to talk to him, so I told him "If you want to talk to Jace, now is your chance." He took my phone and answered it. Apparently jace wanted to know when I was coming back to Provo. From the end of the conversation I could hear, James said "You can't have her, she's mine. She's never coming back" I was trying to not laugh hysterically.
And then on Monday when I was at work Jace came in and was asking me what I was doing this weekend. I told him that I might be going home for my little sister's birthday (even though I'm not and never plan to, but it was something to keep me from going out with him) Then he said "I tried calling you this weekend, but I think your brother or dad anwered your phone." I laughed and said "Sorry about that. It was actually my boyfriend." He seemed flabbergasted at that, which was the effect I was going for... It was perfect. Hopefully he gets the hint and leaves me alone.
Ha ha ha ha oh, and then when we were coming home back from Layton, Tayler Knowles, Craig and I got a ride with Amanda. I got to ride with Craig in the back (because that would have been wierd for her to ride in back with him) and we flirted the entire ride back. He told me he was going to sleep so he'd probably take up the entire back seat. I told him it was ok because I don't take up a lot of room. He pulled a beanie on and then sprawled (as much as he could) across the back seat with his head in my lap. I gave him a pouty look and he asked what that was for. I told him "How can I play with your hair if you have a hat on?" He prompty took it off and let me play with his hair. With my other hand doing nothing, he grabbed it with both of his and pulled it close to his chest, cradling it to him. I was basically in heaven. I thoroughly enjoyed myself the entire car ride. It was wonderful.
Anyway... ha ha ha sorry to bore you :) Adios muchachos!

UGH!!

2008-10-01T13:31:00.001-07:00

So I went on a date with David last weekend. I was being the shameless flirt that I am and I let it go too far. He tried to kiss me. I don't really have anything against kissing, but because I've never been actually kissed I don't want to waste my first kiss on something I don't mean. Its a long, complicated process. Anyway, when he leaned in to kiss me, I ducked away. He kissed me on the cheek. (I don't consider that a real kiss, just FYI). So the next day I apologized for being a horrible person and it took me like half an hour to convince him that all of this was my fault. I told him that we probably shouldn't see each other as often and that he was just reacting like any normal person would.

Next subject. I went to Taylor's farewell and it was so fun!!! Thomas came with me (he's not a member) and he seemed to really enjoy it. At least, he was paying attention, which is a good sign. But I was being a shameless flirt again at the shin-dig at Taylor's house after. Dez gave me the world's biggest hug, Cory hugged me and kissed my hand, Keith kissed the top of my head: I was having fun. Although Taylor was being awkward. I didn't like it at all; he wasn't being himself. Maybe he's just tyring to get into "missionary mode" or something. But he promised to try and come see me at the creamery before he goes into the MTC on the 14th. So that should be good. James was at the farewell. He's the one who took me home. He dropped off Adam at his house then drove me back to mine because Amanda was going to come pick me up at 4 o'clock. So he took me home and he was being so cute to me. What a punk. I'm not supposed t like him.
Another good thing about Taylor's farewell is that Craig was there. He looked so stinkin' attractive. It should be illegal how attracted to him I was. His hair was messy, but I could tell he'd done it that morning, he was wearing his glasses which look extremely good on him, he was wearing Sunday clothes which ups the attractive level on almost everyone, and he had his sleeves rolled up. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I think it is so attractive when guys push or roll their sleeves up and I can see their forearms. Its such a turn on. (I know, I'm strange)
Now I'm back at school. The week is going by so slow. I can't wait for the weekend. I'm going home for conference and I'm so excited. There really isn't a good reason for me to be so excited, but I am nonetheless. My classes are going well. I had my first test in Human Development and I got 91% on it, which I thought was pretty good. I have my first test in Physical Science tomorrow. I'm hoping its relatively easy. I did fine on my sign language presentation, it could have gone better, but it was good. I was the only one who got commended today in vocal class, which I'm feeling pretty good about. She told me I had a few things to work on but that I was the only one who nailed the right balance between singing articulate but not through my nose. I'm satisfied. :)
Well, thats it for now. I've got some homework to catch up on and some reading to do. Adios!

13th Grade

2008-09-19T23:13:00.000-07:00

Lancers 13: Darts 7. I was kidnapped by Amanda and brought back home for Layton's Homecoming game. Thomas picked me up and took me over to Keith and Katie's to surprise tham before the game (they didn't know I was back in town) Katie started spazing out the second she saw me. It took Keith a second to realize who I was. It made me laugh.
So I met up with Brittani, Jerrica, Anna, Jeanna, Taylor, Jessica, Mikayla, Sophia, Matt, Liz, Amber, Brian and Landon at the game. We sat behind the student section. I got to be in 13th grade. It felt so good being back on familiar turf, doing something comfortable and being around people I know and who know me. And to top it off, the Lancers won. Its not a surprise, but it still made the evening perfect. And then I got to see all of my friends who are stil in high school. I got to hug my Chaylyn and Cory and Tara and Austin and Landon and Kaylin... It was so fun
After the game I went with Hyrum Wendall to a party where we met up with James, Adam, Richie, Josh, Kelcie, Keisha, Katie, Reagan, Jordan, rachel, just a bunch of high school seniors. I had fun. I flirted a lot with James. It ridiculous how much we flirted actually. My mom wanted me home at 11:30 and so I asked James if he could give me a ride. (Tyler had taken the car to the game) So he drove me home and when he went to drop me off, he got out of the car and just held me for a minute. He pulled me really tight to his chest and wouldn't let go. We started talking in each others arms and in the middle of it, he leaned in and kissed my forehead. The weird part is that I didn't mind. I would have been ok if he'd kissed me again. But he just held me and kept pulling me close. I'm just short enough as to where I can tuck my head under his chin and I think he enjoys it. So he just held onto me for a few more minutes keeping us pressed together. Then he finally said that I should go in. I lost my footing as I stepped back and so he scooped me into his arms and carried me to the front door. He gave me another hug and as I turned to open the door his put his arms around me from behind and pulled mme close to him again. He whispered in my ear "Til next week. Good night" and walked off.
I have issues. I should not have enjoyed that. I have enough issues with other boys as it is. I don't need to add him back into the confusion equation. grr...
Well, gotta get up early tomorrow. Adios!

News

2008-09-12T23:16:00.000-07:00

So I've learned a lot of new things in the past few days. First of all, oil burns are not very happy. They make you look like you have lepracy. Here's the story:
I was at work last Thursday covering for someone and they told me to help out with fries. I was in charge of scooping them from the heater into the little fry dishes and calling names over the speaker for customers to pick up their orders. I was going right along and reached in to scoop up some fries and the stupid kid working the frier forgot to let all the hot oil drip off the basket before swinging it over into the heater. He flipped oil all over the place, including four large drops on my arm that are still in the process of healing. They turned red, pussed out, scabbed over ect. Its pretty disgusting. And I'm pretty sure I'll have the scars for life. (I should sue)
Second, being a chick sucks... You get the idea. but that one turns into a happy story. Here goes:
I was having a bad day. I was stressed about losing my scholarship for lack of enough credit hours, writing the stupidest paper I've heard of in my entire life, work was long and tiring, and I was missing my friends. I was becoming thoroughly frustrated while writing my paper, so I decided to step back for a bit, go for a walk, try and clear my head and such. So I jog around campus for a little, then start to walk. I'm holding ok at that point, but I don't want to go back to my paper. So I go sit down in the Heritage Central Building commons area. I got a text from Adam and I broke down. Crying, I called up Craig. he answered, said hello and asked how I was. I told him not so good and I think he could hear me crying. I asked him what he was doing and he told me he was just doing homework. Then he told me he was going to come visit me. I told him it would be easier if I went to him because I was already out. So I went over to his building and into the lobby near his apartment upstairs. He was waiting for me as I turned the corner. He opened his arms and pulled me to his chest. He just stood there for a second letting me sob into his shirt, then grabbed my hand and pulled me to the couch. He sat me down, put his arm around me and told me to tell him everything. I did (except the... feminine issues) and he gave me advice on everything. We sat there for about 45 minutes with his arm around my shoulder, my head resting on his chest and his hand rubbing my arm trying to sooth me. (it would have been dang cute if I hadn't been sobbing) Anyway, after a while he said "I'd like to stay and cuddle you forever, but I think the best thing for you to do would be to get some sleep." So we got up and he started walking me back to my building. He put his arm around my shoulder, I put mine around his waist and it was amazing how perfectly I fit by his side (just sayin). We started talking about classes and how he thinks his religion class is going to be his toughest class. At that, I laughed and said "Nothing like seminary, eh?" He laughed too and agreed. then we started talking about when we had had seminary together and how our teacher reffered to us as "Sophomore Corner". I reminded him that everytime that teacher saw me, he would remind me that Craig is supposed to marry me. I looked up at him and smiled and he looked down to me, smiled and said "I'm working on it." (If he hadn't have been right there, I would have screamed for joy) After that i apoplogized again for coming and crying to him. He just looked at me and said "As much as I don't like crying, I'm glad you called me. I'll always be there for you." That made me extremely happy as well.
The next day he called me up just to see if I was doing ok. He asked if I was having a less stressful day and how my classes had gone and such. He's just too cute for his own good.
Thirdly news-wise, I came home today with Matt and Justin. Justin is going flying with me and Taylor tomorrow. I'm so excited. but back to the news. After we dropped Justin off at his house, Matt and I were talking about our ward or something and Matt let it slip that all the boys in apartments 208 and 209 happen to think I'm very attractive. I kinda like that fact, even though I don't understand it. I wish I had more detail, but that isn't something you can just pry out of someone without feeling stupid. Oh well.
So that's all my news. I should probably go to sleep considering I have to wake up in 6 hours. Ha ha ha Buenos Noches! Adios! (see how much I remember from Spanish class, thats about it actually) ;)

Playing college

2008-09-09T17:21:00.000-07:00

So my roommate summed it up really well when she said "It doesn't really feel like I'm living here. It feels more like I decided to play college today. Now's when we get to dress and go to class." Its so true. I can't describe it any better than that. It is a very strange sensation.
Anyway, my classes are going great. I'm not a huge fan of my human development class. I have a paper due on Monday that I don't understand. I think we're supposed to choose the side that we agree with in an argument and then try and find the faults in the research. Does that make an sense to you? It doesn't to me. Luckily my roommate Jess is in the class with me so I don't have to go there everyday and sit by myself.
Book of Mormon is fine. My professor is kinda crazy. He's police chief over all of BYU. He's a pretty random person. But we actually dove into the scriptures yesterday (well, we read the title page) and he's a surprisingly good teacher.
Physical Science isn't torturous. But that's only because Dr. Clark is teaching us how to teach it to elementary school students. Thank goodness. Otherwise I'd loath it. But its easy. the only real work we have to do is reading the textbook out of class and answering about 6 questions about each chapter. Once we get the lab going, that might be a different story, but for now its good.
Sign Language is easily me favorite class. Because I'm taking level 2 again I know most of whats going on. I don't have to try very hard to catch on to what she is saying, and I understand almost everything she says. Its so cool. My favorite is whenever I go to anything at the Marriott Center I watch the interpreters to see how much I understand. I'm amazing at how much I can understand. (my guess is that being able to hear the speaker and watch them at the same time helps) But I love it.
Boys. Lets see... I went on a date with Joshua and he held my hand. (I owed my roommates M&M's and cookies for that one) I watched a movie with Craig and we flirted the entire time. David told me that I shouldn't worry about hurting him by going out with someone at school while he's not here but that he claims me whenever I come home. Part of me is slightly in love with Adam and I told him that. Surprisingly he was ok with it, but told me that even though he would love it, things are too complicated to work between us. And I totally understood that. (Its so weird that we're were both s calm and collected about it)
Um, thats about it. I'm going to get myself some food and then I should focus on trying to do some homework. (gag me with a pitchfork. I really don't want to do any of that evil stuff. Oh well) Adios!

Groovin

2008-09-04T22:29:00.001-07:00

So I just came from learning how to dance with some of my roommates and a few guys in our ward. Scott (an attractive kid from Idaho) was my partner because he was the shortest of the guys. He was the one who knew what he was doing, so I had a pretty good experience. I love dancing, but I never know what I'm doing so it was nice to have someone knowledgeable leading me. Its just a bonus that (if I were to have a crush on someone in my ward, I don't but...) I got to dance with him. He's super sweet and cute and just fun. Anyway, we learned how to cha-cha, waltz, swing, we even tried some really cool spins and stuff. It was just totally fun. And I got to bond with Kirsten and Desi, which was nice.
Apparently college is all about the dance parties because I've been to like 5 and I've only been here for a week. Its awesome!! And they've all been with different people. One was with Taylor, one was with Justin, Amanda and the rest of the sophomores, one was with my ward, one was with just Amanda and now we were actually dancing. (note to self, get better music!!) Most of the music has been totally lame.
Anyway, that's all there is for now. college is going good. I only have one class tomorrow and I'm way happy about it! Sleep is calling to me. Adios!

Umm...

2008-09-03T17:51:00.000-07:00

School is under way. I've had two days of classes, and guess what? I'm ready to be done. No more school for me. (sigh, I know, I know. I should still go and I will but I don't want too). And I went to my first day of work today. It wasn't horrible (it wasn't necessarily me favorite either though) but it should be good. I just spent the past hour making a huge calendar of when all my homework assignments are due for all of my classes for the entire semester. (yeah, its got a lot on there) It's all color coded and I have a lot of green and pink homework (Physical Science and Human Development) Its crazy.
Anyway, last night was instersting. I was talking to David about the way our "relationship" is going and how I feel about it. I told as much truth as I dared to without crushing him. It was a pretty intense conversation. I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone (without biting their head off) so I locked my self in our room and put in "The Princess Bride" and ate an entire bowl of popcorn and a ton of smarties. I was pretty angry with the kid. He just doesn't get it. But then the guys from my ward came over with cookies and told us they were having a dance party on their sundeck, so I changed back into normal clothes and went over there. I had fun! I was letting all my frustration out through dancing, and I'm pretty sure some of the guys were a little intimidated by it. But I didn't care. I was in a good mood again and I was having fun. We have a kid from Germany in our ward and he told me that I reminded him of Jezel from Enchanted. (he's like the 5th person to tell me that. Its weird) But I decided it was a compliment, so I took it. And then Matt started making fun of me because thats what he does (yeah, Matt McKinley is in my ward. Odd)
So that's about all the news I have. Except BYU won the football game!! GO COUGARS!!!!! WOO HOO!!!!!! And I hope weh decide to have another ward dance party soon. I loved it.
Anyway, adios for now!!

BYU

2008-08-29T10:27:00.000-07:00

I made it. I'm at BYU living in the dorms with roommates. We're on our own. It's more than a little frightening. I moved in on the 27th. I was late and didn't get to register for orientation so I just moved all of my stuff iinto my room and unpacked everything (I have a lot of stuff). Then my parents dropped me off at Helaman Fields for the bbq/movie they were showing. I found Justin and sat with him and his roommates. They're a little bit weird.
Then yesterday I met up with Kayleigh Skinner. She didn't really want all the fluff of orientation either, so the two of us did whatever we wanted. We got a lot done. Then we met up with all the other freshmen for luch (we just couldn't refuse free lunch) and then a devotional thing. It was kind of long a monotonous. After that I went to the Creamery for training. They told me everything I needed to know about how to run the grill and ice cream and I only remember about 1/3 of it, but I think I'll be able to catch on quickly enough. I came back home and hod some bonding time with my roommates Jessica and Morgan. They both went to davis ( >:P ) but we get along prettty well. I think it'll all be good. Then the three of us went to the "tradition of Honor" skit presentation at the Marriot Center. I was not that bad actually. But the best part was at the end. One of the Y-grounp leaders wrote a song for another Y-group leader (his girl friend) and then he proposed. It was pretty adorable. I called it from the moment he pulled her up on stage. I was on a high, it was just so happy. Then we came back to our apartment and had a "dorm meeting". It was actually a lot of fun. It was the first time all 6 of us were together in one place. We stayed up til after midnight sitting around the kitchen table talking.
This morning I decided I didn't want to go to orientation, so I didnt'. I slept. It made me very happy. Now I'm just waiting to go to the service fair and lunch. After that I'm going to check out the education department at the David O. McKay Building. Later tonight is the "Friday Night Extravaganza". I think its just field games, but it should be fun
I know I tried to get away from it all by coming to school but the boy situation isn't getting any better. I went on a date with David the night before I came up to school and I was being horrible. I knew he felt a little awkward about kissing me (and that I felt awkward about it too) so he didn't want to do that again. I could tell he really wanted to, but wouldn't. We went to "The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian". It was a pretty good show. But I was being a shameless flirt. I really played it up that I liked him. We were holding hands, I was leaning on his shoulder, I gently touched his face with my fingertips, I was HORRIBLE! I say that because I knew he wouldn't do anything and I didn't really mean any of it. We were talking after and he said "I did everything wrong" I asked him why he thought that and he said '' I was being too cautious". I told him "You were being cautious. I was tempting you to be reckless, I'm horrible" Then he said that he should have kissed me again. Now I'm afraid the next time I go home he's going to kiss me. (hopefully he'll be over my by then, but...)
And then there's my second problem: Craig. He's at school with me. I only saw him once, but I've been looking for him everytime I go to the orientation stuff. I know for a fact that I'm going to see him tomorrow at the football game (which I'm super excited for). Our tickets are right by each other. We did that on purpose so that all us Layton people could be together at least once in a while.
I don't know. All of this is just confusing. Oh well. Adios!

Scary

2008-08-26T22:57:00.000-07:00

So, I'm not sure what to think about myself at this point. Actually, I think I might be a horrible person. My friend David and I have been hanging out a lot and I think I might actually be starting to like him. But not enough to do anything about it, but by how I've let on I think he might be thinking differently. I've been as flirtatious as I could with him, even though I wasn't taking it seriously and I knew he was. I just got back from a movie with him. We held hands and had a hard time focusing on the movie because we were acting like love sick puppies. I couldn't help myself!!!! I'm such a ridiculous cuddle bug and flirt. I feel like a horrible person.
Although I do have to admit if he'd tried to kiss me, I wouldn't have kissed him back, but I don't think I would have pushed him away. This is good news for him and bad news for me. I'm not supposed to be emotionally tied dwon to Layton. Sure I knew I'd be leaving friends, but they weren't supposed to be any more than that. Even all my junior friends who I was exremely flirtatious with all year. Grr.
But I move down to Provo tommorow. I'm so nervous and excited. I think the most nerve wracking part isn't that I'm about to move out and live on my own, but the fact that I'm going to be living with 5 girls that I don't know. I hope we get along and can have fun together. I don't want to feel uncomfortable around them (that would be horrible) Luckily Amanda, Justin, Lisa, Nique, Matt, Tayler and Kayleigh will be there just in case I need someone to save me.
Well, Im out for the night. later!

Free at Last, Free at Last!

2008-08-21T10:50:00.000-07:00

Today is my last day working at the daycare. I'm quite excited. Not that I don't love it and will miss it, but I'm ready to be done. I even have a new replacement job. I got it yesterday in Provo. I'm going to start working at the Creamery on 9th.
Yesterday was such a long day. I was up at 4:30 in the morning so that I could be down in Provo for a job interview. It was for a custodial job, but it was too far away from my dorm to be useful. And then my mom and I spent all day down there trying to get as much done as pssible before the rush of next week. At 2:30 I had my job interview at the creamery. It went really smooth and they offered me a job then and there. It was awesome. From there we drove back to Layton where my mom droped me off at the gym for work. I got off at 9:15 then came home and watched Pirates II (my brother had never seen it before) By the time I got to bed it was 11:30. I had a 19 hour day. It was very long.
Ok, the boy situation. So David (we're still calling him that) kissed me, he's jealous of James because I'm a flirt with him, I rebroke Kevin's heart and I'm desperately in love with Craig. Any questions? If you do I'll try to answer them. Ha ha ha (Don't you love the code names?)

Still Confused

2008-08-15T09:09:00.000-07:00

Well, things haven't gotten any better on the boy front. In fact now they're more confusing. but I won't go into detail. We'll just say we've added another element that should be there. Drat.
But on to good news. My friend Patrick got his mission call. He's going to Australia!! How cool is that?! I'm really proud of him. He's going to do an amazing job. I can't believe I'm sending missionaries out. I'm writing to 2 missionaries already (Ron, Ireland and John, Ohio), I'm waiting for another address (Vandes, Chile). And I'm waiting for two others to go out so I can write them (Taylor, Fiji and Patrick, Australia) And there are lots of others waiting to go and get their mission calls. I love it!!! Missionaries are my absolute favorite, especially if I know them. HOORAY!!
Well thats it for now. Adios!

Stress and Confusion!

2008-08-13T21:13:00.000-07:00

Well BYU is being dumb and they've lost some of my registration stuff. We've sent it in thrice now and they still claim they don't have it. They're just dumb and have lost it. Grr.
Now we'll add in the boy factor. A little bit at least. :) I've been friends with this kid (we'll call him David) Since last year. It was my goal to include David in my group of friends and keep him informed and such. But apparently I did it too well because now he really likes me and its not necessarily a bad thing, but I don't like him like that. He's too luch like me and more like a brother than an option. But he's really persistant and I do like to hang out with him, but... GAH! Add to the fact that I'm totally head over heels for a different guy. I've known him for just about three years, had a crush on him for two and a half, and he's PERFECT!! He's my type, and I don't have a type! But he pays me no attention, which is really depressing. But I don't want to push our friendship too far and ruin it. I care about him too much to do that. GRR!!!!
I'll stop now, but if you have ANY advice I could use it. Til Later than!
(2 weeks from today and I move down to Provo!)

Well...

2008-08-11T12:12:00.000-07:00

So, I've starteda blog. That's pretty random.
This morning I took pictures with my best friend Brittani. They're pretty adorable. If I can figure out how to post some, I will (but it could take a while)
I leave for BYU in 16 days. I'm getting a little worried, but still excited. The best part is that I'll have some friends there before I move down. Justin, Amanda, Lisa, Nique, Tayler, Matt and some of my cousins will be down there too. That will be nice. I can't wait to meet my roommates. They sound so fun. I hope we get along. (I'm crossing my fingers)
I don't know how much I should talk about, so we'll leave it at that for now. Adios!